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Heal, Don’t Haunt: How to Stop Bringing Yesterday Into Today’s Love

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You’re sitting across from someone who sees you.
They ask how your day was. They hold your hand without needing a reason. They’re present. But you? You’re somewhere else. Replaying a conversation from two years ago. Flinching at the memory of betrayal. Quietly bracing for this one to let you down—because the last one did.

This is what happens when the past shows up uninvited in your relationship. It dresses up as protection but acts like sabotage. And if you’re not careful, you’ll mistake fear for instinct—and ruin something real.


The Haunting: What the Past Brings With It

People say “time heals”, but that’s only half true. Time dulls pain. It doesn’t erase it. If you’ve buried your hurt instead of processing it, you’re not healed—you’re just emotionally limping.

That ex who made you feel not enough? That betrayal you never really unpacked? It lives on. It shows up in the way you check their phone, doubt compliments, or expect silence to mean rejection.

Example:
You’re dating someone who works late. They’re consistent, communicative, but unavailable some evenings. Your ex used “working late” as a cover for cheating. So now, even when your partner texts, “Be home by 10,” your body tenses. You snap. Not because they’re lying—but because someone else did.


The Fallout: How the Past Messes Up the Present

When you’re stuck in the past, you don’t give the present a fair shot.

You punish your current partner for wounds they didn’t cause. You flinch at love even when it’s safe. You push people away—not because they’ve failed you, but because someone else did.

What it looks like:

  • Trust is conditional – You ration it out based on fear, not facts.
  • You test them – Setting them up to fail, to prove you right.
  • You self-sabotage – Ending things early to avoid getting hurt later.

You turn relationships into emotional escape rooms—full of puzzles, tests, and traps. Exhausting for both of you.


The Shift: How to Stop the Past from Running the Show

You don’t need to be perfectly healed to love again. But you do need to be aware of what you’re bringing in.

Healing is about recognising when the threat is gone—and choosing not to react like it’s still here.

1. Notice the Pattern

If every relationship feels like déjà vu, there’s a reason. Get curious. Not judgmental.

Try this:
Journal what you’re really afraid of.

“I’m scared they’ll leave.”
“I don’t trust love to last.”
“I feel safer alone.”

Writing it down makes it real—and easier to work through.

2. Separate Then from Now

When you feel triggered, pause and ask:

“Is this about them… or someone else?”

Most of the time, it’s an echo. Not a warning.

Example:
They don’t text for a few hours. Instead of spiralling into “They’re pulling away,” remind yourself: “Have they given me a reason to doubt them?” If not—breathe. Stay present.

3. Speak It, Don’t Project It

Your partner isn’t your therapist. But they can be your safe space—if you let them in.

Say this instead of snapping:

“Sometimes I get anxious when you’re quiet. It’s something I’m working on—it’s not your fault. I just want to be honest.”

Vulnerability builds closeness. Blame builds walls.

4. Do the Inner Work

Healing takes effort. Whether it’s therapy, shadow work, or just learning how to sit with discomfort—you have to be willing to do the work.

No one can do it for you. But they can walk beside you while you do it.


The Truth: Love in the Present Is a Choice

Being hurt isn’t your fault. Staying in hurt? That’s a choice.

You deserve love without fear. You deserve to be trusted, supported, seen. But if you keep waiting for the other shoe to drop, you’ll miss the person standing right in front of you—trying to love you well.

So when the past knocks, open the door. Feel what you need to feel. Then close it. You’ve got better places to be.


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ENTRY 33

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ABBY:
It’s interesting how, standing there, in front of Aunty, her arms around me while I felt completely betrayed, would spark a chain of events that would send my life spiralling.

Let’s pause for a minute.

After that encounter, I spent years of my life angry, wallowing in self-pity, and doing more harm to myself than good.
How? you ask.
Well, let me break it down.

I made a decision—by myself, on my own—to cut off Chief and his wife completely.

I snuck back into their house, packed my things, and moved into a guest house. I still had the credit card Chief had given me—angry but not stupid, or so I thought.

I ignored every plea, every call from my mum, from Chief, and even from Aunty. But I held onto that card like a lifeline. And to be fair, Chief kept sending me money every month, which I never acknowledged.

By now I was spiralling—festering in anger, running down this crazy path of “they betrayed me, and I’m not ready to listen to an explanation.”

In all that time, I didn’t work.
My plans to do a Master’s degree, as Chief had wanted, derailed.
He had wanted me to come work in one of his companies—God forbid, I said.
“I’ll find my own way.”

And oh, how I found it.

One day, there was a knock at my guest house door.

The manager handed me a rude shock.
“Madam, sorry, your card has been declined. You have an outstanding balance to clear. If not, we won’t be able to offer you accommodation any longer.”

Panic. Real, blinding panic.

“Try it again,” I said, trying to sound confident.
He replied, “Madam, we’ve tried it four times.”

He dropped the card on the table and walked off, saying,
“Please be aware, check-out is 12 noon.”

Oh my dear Lord, I began to sweat—in an air-conditioned room.

Immediately, I called Funmi—one of the friends I’d made during this crazy phase. I composed myself and lied, saying I was bored with the hotel and asked if I could stay at hers for a few days.

“Sis, of course! Let’s party!” she said, excitedly.

Packing up my things, I thought to myself: Okay, Funmi will take care of things now. After all, I’d been the generous one for the past two years.

But oh, how wrong I was.
Hmmm…


CHRIS:
Lying under cattle, occasionally standing for air, I watched Thomas wriggling on the floor beside me.

I stared at the cows chewing lazily and thought:
Why does finding my destiny have to be so hard?

Edward had applied for a job, gotten it, and his life had begun.
Me? I had been threatened by desert guides, swallowed by sandstorms, watched people die in front of me, scorched by the merciless sun, and chased by bloodthirsty pirates—
And now, here I was, making cosy with cattle.

What next?

Well, I didn’t have to wait long.

As night fell, I realised we had been in that truck for nearly 24 hours, barely eating because of the stench. I managed to sip a little water, trying not to gag.

Then suddenly, the truck slowed down and came to a halt.

I stood carefully, stiff and aching. In the distance, I saw tiny specks of light—a camp!

Elated, I shook Thomas gently.
“Bro, camp. Let’s go.”

Waiting until the driver and his companion were gone, I helped Thomas climb out. I held him close as we walked, the lights growing bigger and brighter.

Finally, we arrived.

Bustling with people, music, the smell of food—and, most importantly, a well!

We stumbled towards the water, plunged our heads in, and drank greedily.

As we stood there recovering, a man approached. He spoke in a language we didn’t understand, then waved another man over—this one with curly hair and broken English.

“Hi friends. You hungry?” he asked.

Music to our ears. We nodded eagerly.

I said, “Friend sick.”

The man waved for us to follow. He took us to a tent that looked like a makeshift clinic—camp beds, drip stands, the works.

Thomas lay down. The woman there tested him and said to the translator, “He has fever. You got money?”

Thank God I had a few dollars left, like the company had told us to carry. I handed her $10, and she gave Thomas an injection and hooked up a drip.

The other man returned with bread and a steaming bowl of stew.

I didn’t even ask what it was. I thanked them, sat on a mat next to Thomas, and ate. Then I fed him too.

Before long, we were fast asleep.

When we woke up, Thomas had sweat buckets—his temperature was down and he felt stronger. I was so relieved.

I stretched and went outside, breathing in the cool desert air.

And just as I looked around—my heart stopped.

There, walking across from the well, was one of our original guides.

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How to find Your True Passion

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Lesson 1:

The first step is simple but powerful: get clear on what lights you up.

You can’t build wealth around something you “sort of” enjoy. It has to be something you feel connected to, something you could talk about for hours or lose yourself in doing.

Here’s how to find it:

  • Think about what you love doing in your free time.
  • Notice what people come to you for advice about.
  • Remember what made you feel alive as a child.

Activity:
Write down 10 things you love doing, no matter how silly or small they seem.

You might already see a theme emerging.

Lesson 2: Next week. Please leave comments below.

ENTRY 30

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ABBY:
“Mum, who is my real father?” I asked again, this time firmer.

She looked at me, stunned, eyes wide like I had just slapped her.

“What kind of question is that, Abby?” she said, almost stuttering. “What’s come over you?”

“Please don’t do this,” I replied calmly. “I came all this way for the truth. Don’t deny me.”

She stood up, wiped her hands on her wrapper, and turned away. “This is nonsense. I don’t know what lies they’ve been feeding you in Lagos.”

“Does Daddy know?” I asked.

That stopped her cold. She didn’t turn around, but I could see her shoulders tense, her back stiffen.

I repeated the question, more softly this time. “Does Daddy know I’m not his?”

She slowly sat down again, not facing me. A long silence followed. Then she began, her voice low and cracked.

“I was four weeks pregnant when I ran from Lagos.”

My heart thudded.

“I had no job, no money, and nowhere to go. I couldn’t tell my parents… It would’ve been a disgrace. I would’ve been cast out, labelled, shamed. They would’ve disowned me.”

She paused, tears now falling freely. “Then… he came. Your ‘father’. He had just returned from the city, looking to marry. He approached me within a week. I was desperate. I knew if I told him the truth, he’d walk away. So… I made love to him.”

I closed my eyes in horror.

“I made sure he would think the child was his. I had no choice, Abby. I didn’t know what else to do.”

“You had a choice,” I said bitterly. “You always had a choice. You chose to lie—for a lifetime.”

“I did it to protect you!” she snapped, suddenly turning on me. “To give you a name, a home, a family! You would’ve been a bastard in this village, and you know how they treat girls like that!”

Her voice cracked. “You think it was easy for me?”

She stood up, wiping her face angrily. “You don’t know what it’s like to be a woman in a place like this!”

And with that, she stormed off into the house, slamming the door behind her.

Just then, my father—no, the man I called father—returned from the farm, his hands dusty, a cutlass slung across his shoulder.

He stopped when he saw me. “Abby? What’s going on? Why is your mother crying?”

I looked at him, heart breaking into a thousand shards.

“Ask your dutiful wife,” I said coldly, brushing past him.

I got into the car and told the driver, “Take me back to Lagos.”

The ride back was a blur.

My phone lit up with calls. Chief. Over and over again.

But I ignored them all.

I wasn’t ready to face him. Or anyone.

Hmmm…


CHRIS:
When we finally reached the Bedouin camp, I collapsed.

Not just from exhaustion—but from everything. The fear. The hunger. The heat. The silence.

The camp looked like something out of a war documentary. Tattered tents, scattered fires, makeshift shelters. Dozens of people—dust-covered, hollow-eyed, some bandaged, some too weak to speak.

But the most beautiful sight of all? Water.

Cold, real water. Buckets of it. We ran. We drank. We cried.

Some of the locals passed around simple food—flatbread, boiled eggs, dates. We were grateful for every bite.

For a moment, it felt like we’d made it.

But then reality struck again.

That evening, one of our guides gathered us. “There’s a lorry coming tonight. It will take some of you to the next checkpoint. But space is limited—first come, first serve. The drivers want bribes. If you want a spot, pay up.”

Murmurs broke out. A few shouted. Some cried.

I turned to Thomas. “Do you still have any cash?”

He shook his head. “Just a bit. Not enough.”

We both stared at the fire in silence, knowing we might not make it on that truck.

Then night fell.

That was when the real nightmare began.

Shouting. Screaming.

The sound of horses galloping.

Men in turbans, faces covered, waving machetes and rifles charged into the camp—desert pirates.

They slashed tents open, looted bags, beat people to the ground. Women were dragged by the hair. Men were cut down mid-run.

It was chaos.

Thomas grabbed my hand. “Run!”

We darted into the dark, slipping through makeshift shelters, dodging bodies and flames.

I turned back just once—and I’ll never forget what I saw.

One of the girls from our group—she couldn’t have been more than 19—was screaming as a man on horseback dragged her away.

I still hear that scream.

When it was finally quiet, Thomas and I emerged from hiding.

The camp was in ruins. Tents torn. Fires smouldering.

People—dead, scattered.

Our group? Gone.

We couldn’t find any of them.

We were alone.

In the middle of nowhere.

And we had no idea what to do next.

Hmmm

JUST BE…

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Dearie,

Once upon a time, I let other people determine my happiness. I did all I could to make sure no one was upset with me. I bent over backwards to make people love me. I was the quiet one, the one who hardly ever got upset, the one who was always there for everyone.

I was the one who would volunteer to help, run errands. I was the one who would give all I had, even if it meant going hungry. I was the one who would give a friend my best dress and wear anything, just to make them like me. I was the one who would step aside for a guy I liked, just because my friend said she liked him too – even though I saw him first.

I always put myself in compromising positions, thinking of others before myself, putting their welfare, needs, and wants above mine.
I was the first to apologise, even when someone else hurt me. I was the one who got left behind, the one who would get down from a car and walk, just to make room for someone else.
I did all this just to make people grow fond of me.

But you know what? I learnt the hard way.

No matter how much you do – and trust me, I did everything short of killing myself –
somebody, somewhere, will still not like you.
They will hate you, speak badly about you behind your back, pretend, mock, and humiliate you over and over again.

So, the sooner you get on with your life, the better.
Live life for you, not for others.
Don’t let them take advantage of you. Do what you can and leave the rest.
Create boundaries for yourself.
Ask God for wisdom, and then sit back and see how He will turn your life around.

Relationships should not be one-sided.
It takes two to tango.
Give and take, they say.

Make a choice today: become the person God created you to be –
not the person others want you to be.

God bless you as you make this decision.

Welcome to the best days of the rest of your life.

JUST BE.

Love,
She Heals

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TRAUMA MADE ME THIS WAY…

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…….AND I DIDN’T EVEN KNOW

We don’t always know where it started. We just are the way we are.
Quiet. People-pleasing. Always on edge. A perfectionist. Detached. Or loud, confrontational, always “in control.”

You think, “That’s just my personality.” But what if it’s not?

What if it’s trauma?

What if the things you do every day—the way you love, fear, react, trust, isolate, over-function—aren’t just quirks of who you are, but protective layers built around wounds you never truly addressed?

When Trauma Dresses Like Personality

Let’s say a little girl grows up in a house where her mum is unpredictable—one minute sweet, the next minute yelling, maybe even hitting. No explanation. No comfort.
That child learns to read the room fast. She becomes hyper-aware. She tiptoes. She tries to be “good,” always. She doesn’t speak up. She says sorry even when it’s not her fault.

She grows up and calls herself “easygoing,” “low maintenance,” or “shy.” But what she really became was hypervigilant—wired for safety, not for freedom.

Another child grows up in a home where his father is absent, and his mother is emotionally unavailable, perhaps depressed. No one affirms him. No one tells him he matters.
So he becomes the helper. Always there for others. Always needed. He finds validation in being the one people rely on, because no one was ever really there for him.
He calls it “being dependable,” but truthfully—he’s afraid that without that role, he has no value.

Trauma has a quiet way of weaving itself into our identity until we think it’s just who we are.

Could This Be You?

If you’ve ever said:
“I don’t like conflict.”
“I have trust issues.”
“I hate depending on people.”
“I always need to be in control.”
“I never cry.”
“I always put others first.”

Ask yourself—why?

Who taught you that the only safe place was invisibility?
Who showed you that love must be earned by performance, silence, or sacrifice?

It may not have been one big traumatic event—it could’ve been a thousand little unmet needs.
A thousand small silences.
A thousand moments you were left to figure things out on your own.

And that silent survival mode becomes your identity.

How to Begin to Heal

Healing starts with honesty. It’s not about blaming your parents, your past, or your culture. It’s about telling the truth to yourself.

  1. Name It
    Begin to observe patterns. Where did this behaviour start? Who were you trying to protect, impress, or please?
  2. Feel It
    Let yourself feel what you never could back then—anger, sadness, grief, confusion. Those feelings are not weakness; they’re information.
  3. Speak to Your Inner Child
    That scared, lonely, hyper-responsible, overlooked child still lives in you. She doesn’t need fixing—she needs love. Reassure her. Tell her the things you needed to hear:
    “It wasn’t your fault.”
    “You didn’t have to earn love.”
    “You are safe now.”
  4. Seek Help
    Therapy, counselling, spiritual mentorship—it’s okay to ask for help. There is strength in surrender. There is power in unpacking the past with someone trained to walk you through it.
  5. Create New Narratives
    You are allowed to stop overgiving. You are allowed to say no. You are allowed to take up space. You are allowed to trust again. You are allowed to heal and still be tender.

Remember This

You are not “too much.”
You are not “cold.”
You are not “weak.”
You are not “difficult.”
You are human.

You are a soul that adapted to survive. But now that you’re safe, you can learn to live—not just survive.

Healing doesn’t mean your past disappears.
It means it no longer controls your present.

Let’s begin again. Gently. Boldly. Together.
Because you deserve to be whole.

Love,
She Heals

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ENTRY 27

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ABBY:
Before I go on, let me say this—looking back over the years, I still don’t fully understand what I was thinking at the time. But the choices I made back then led me to where I am today.

Anyway, back to that day.

Pleasantly surprised and a bit confused to see Chief in the flat, I quickly reminded myself—it was his apartment after all. Of course, he had a key. And with four bedrooms, there was more than enough space for him to stay the night.

Smiling respectfully, I greeted him. “Chief! You didn’t tell me you were coming.”

He smiled faintly and replied, “Abby, my daughter. I’m sorry I didn’t. But there’s something important I need to tell you. And it can’t wait any longer.”

His face had changed—serious, almost solemn.

My heart skipped. I sat down quickly, worried something had happened to his wife… or maybe he was sick?

He got up, poured himself a drink, then one for me, and said, “Let’s sit more comfortably, because what I’m about to tell you is unbelievable… but it’s the truth.”

Now, before I tell you what he said—what changed my life forever—I need to take you back.

Back to the village. Back to when I was a child.

I was an only child—at least, that’s what I believed. My parents never had more children, but they raised two boys—my cousins. My dad’s younger brother and his wife had died in a bus accident, and so my father took in their sons.

The three of us grew up together, and I always thought they loved me as much as they could.

In hindsight, maybe there were signs something wasn’t right.

My dad always praised me, almost like he was trying to prove something. My mum was incredibly overprotective—but I assumed that was just because I was a girl and the boys weren’t. Girls are more delicate, right?

But sitting across from Chief that day… watching him sip his drink, about to reveal something that would change everything…

I couldn’t help but wonder…

Hmmm…


CHRIS:
With the group now down to 11 instead of 12, and the harsh reality of this godforsaken journey weighing on us, I found myself praying—out loud, under my breath, inside my head—any way I could.

“Dear God, I know you can see me. You said my destiny was across waters. So how have I ended up crossing sand? Did the prophet see sand and mistake it for water?”

I know it might sound strange, but that’s how I talk to God—raw and honest.

Still no answer.

So I held tightly onto the rope, followed the others, and we kept walking.

Speechless. Exhausted. Scared.

About an hour into the trek, suddenly—screaming.

One of the guys collapsed to the ground, convulsing violently.

One of the guides dashed forward, detaching from the rope. From the corner of my eye, I saw it—slithering quickly into the sand—a black snake.

The black mamba.

I only recognised it because a roommate of mine back in Ibadan had snake posters on his wall. The black mamba was one of them.

I shouted to the guide what I saw, and panic broke out.

We scrambled to run, but being tied together meant no one could go far in any direction. We all tumbled into the sand, arms and legs entangled.

The guide checked the man’s pulse, shook his head. Another one gone.

Here’s the strange thing—though I felt like crying, no tears came.

It was as if the sun had dried up every drop of water in our bodies… even in our eyes.

No one cried. No one screamed. Just silence.

We dug another shallow grave. No prayers. No words. Just sand over flesh.

As I stood there staring at the mound, I held my head and thought,

Is this how we all go?

No one will ever know what happened.

No trace. No goodbye.

“Dear Lord,” I whispered, “please rescue me.”

Hmmm…

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❤️ 5 Signs You May Need Couples Counselling

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“Love is not always easy—but it should never feel impossible.”

No couple is perfect. Every relationship has seasons—moments of warmth, and times of winter. But when you start to feel more distant than connected, or you’ve forgotten what brought you together in the first place, it might be time to ask: Could we use some help?

Here are five honest signs couples counselling might be the healing space you both need:

  1. You keep having the same arguments—with no resolution.
    If you’re stuck in a cycle, it’s not always about the topic—it’s about how you’re communicating. Counselling can break the loop and build bridges where blame once lived.
  2. You feel more like roommates than romantic partners.
    Lack of intimacy, emotional or physical, can be a red flag. You’re sharing space, but not life. Therapy can help you reconnect with intention.
  3. One of you has emotionally checked out.
    When one partner seems distant, apathetic, or disinterested in repair, it hurts deeply. A counsellor can help unpack what’s behind the detachment.
  4. Trust has been broken.
    Infidelity, lies, or betrayal—these wounds run deep. Healing is possible, but it requires transparency, accountability, and a safe place to process. That’s where a skilled guide is invaluable.
  5. You both want to grow, but don’t know how.
    Sometimes it’s not a crisis—it’s just a quiet knowing that “we could be better.” And that’s beautiful. Counselling isn’t only for couples in chaos—it’s for couples who care enough to invest in their future.

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ENTRY 26

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ABBY:
Needless to say, I found myself at the University of Ibadan.

Now, you’d think I’d be full of gratitude to Chief and his wife for turning my life around—and don’t get me wrong, I was—but deep down, I still wanted more.

By now, I was 17. I’d lived with them for over a year, and I was no longer the Abby from the village. My blackmailing tendencies had been curbed—at least I’d learnt the hard way that life outside the village wasn’t always as straightforward as it had been with my dad and aunt.

Chief’s wife made my stay in Ibadan extremely comfortable. They rented me a beautifully furnished apartment, bought me a brand-new car, and opened a bank account that was generously topped up every month.

For four years, I lived a life of luxury.

I studied hard—surprisingly—considering the number of friends and parties I had, and I graduated with a 2:1 in Law.

At 20, I was unrecognisable from the naïve girl I once was.

As a graduation gift, I was given a two-week holiday in London. Not my first time out of the country, mind you—I’d already been to Dubai, Spain, South Africa, and Zanzibar with Chief’s wife. Every time she “needed a break,” I was the lucky one she dragged along.

Shopping. Sun. Spa days.

We flew business class, sat side by side, sipping champagne like mother and daughter.

But one thing still puzzled me—why was nothing ever said about her children?

And I found out, in London.

Chief arranged for someone named Aunty Tracy to pick me up from Heathrow. She dropped me off at Chief’s flat in Chelsea—a lush three-bedroom apartment overlooking the Chelsea Bridge.

She showed me the fully stocked fridge, the new phone with credit, the chauffeur’s number, and the credit card I could use for anything I wanted.

All arranged by Chief.

The next three days, I did what any excited 20-year-old would do—soaked in the jacuzzi with the doors open to the city view, ordered pizza, ice cream, Chinese takeaway, watched films on the big screen.

Bored, I called the driver and asked to be taken to a nightclub. Definitely not like the ones back home.

For three days, I lived like a princess.

Then, one afternoon, I went out to the London Eye and came back home…

…only to find Chief sitting in the living room, staring straight at me.

Hmmm…


CHRIS:
I never imagined walking could hurt like that.

Blisters. Sunburn. Legs that felt like lead. That constant fear that one more step might be my last.

We walked all day. Only stopping when the sun was too harsh or someone nearly collapsed.

Our guides hardly spoke. And when they did, it was always the same: “Keep moving.”

Thomas and I stuck together. We shared what little water we had left, whispered prayers under our breath, and gave each other nods of encouragement.

The desert had no mercy.

By the time we got to our first resting point, the heat was unbearable.

We were drenched in sweat, panting for breath. The guides tied us together with rope around our waists, so if one person stopped, everyone stopped. It forced us to move as one.

They led us into a shallow cave—not deep, but cool enough to give us some relief.

We were told to eat, lie down, and sleep. At sundown, we’d continue.

There was a wave of silent relief as we untied ourselves, flopped to the ground, and took slow sips of water. I ate a bit of bread, laid my head on my bag, and before I knew it, I had passed out from exhaustion.

A few hours later, I was jolted awake by screaming.

Disoriented, I sat up—only to see what was left of the boy who had been lying closest to the entrance.

A mountain lion had attacked.

Half his body was gone.

The girls were wailing. The rest of us stood, frozen, trembling.

The guides, emotionless as ever, stepped in.

“This is the reality of the desert,” one of them said flatly.

They picked up what was left of him and ordered us to dig a shallow grave with old tin plates. We buried him silently, no prayers, no goodbyes. Just sand.

Then the guide turned to us and said,

“That’s his life now. The rest of you—pack up. We’ve got a long way to go.”

Hmmm…